If you know me very well at all you know I rarely shy away from the spotlight but for some reason to stand before 80 people and share your heart and then have to ask them for money is very hard, very awkward...very humbling.
But despite my shortcoming, my flaws, my nerves....it was an amazing night. We were overwhelmed and blessed by God's provisions for us. I was reminded of a verse from Jeremiah 10, "I know, O Lord, that a man's life is not his own, it is not for man to direct his steps." (verse 23)
This whole journey to date has not been made possible by anything Tate and I have done or will do. We have prayed about every detail and have asked God to show up in a big way and He has. Obedience is not always easy but it has been worth it.
John Thomas, founder of Living Hope, was able to be with us Thursday night and he asked a simple question, "How far will you go?" A few years ago the answer to that question for me was a shallow excuse for a Christian. I'll go far enough that doesn't interrupt my schedule or my plans, or what I want for my life and my family. That would have been my answer not even 12 months ago. Luckily though, my life is not my own and the Lord has other plans for us...and for that I am grateful that I finally was able to let go (not necessarily easily) but let go and let God have EVERY area of my life.
My final thought to the group that was there Thursday was a quote from Saint Teresa of Avila
"Christ has no body on earth but YOURS,
No hands but YOURS
No feet but YOURS.
Yours are the eyes through which Christ's compassion for the world is to look out,
Yours are the feet with which He is to go about doing good;
And yours are the hands with which He is to bless us now."
Our lives are not our own but Gods...let Him have all of yours.